i gotta step back more.

Things are hard and it's getting more lonely here lately...which leads to plans that could happen a month after arriving back from Sudan.  Plans that would once again take me out of my comfort zone.  But when i find out if i'm supposed to fulfill this option, i'll be more specific.

But i got to thinking...

If it wasn't for me being single, would i have still become involved with Nadus?

If it wasn't for me being single, would i have still began to give my time to Americana Community Center?

If it wasn't for me being single, would the door that opened for me to go to Southern Sudan and meet more and help theses people, have been opened?  Would i have the same desires and passion and love for the beauty and culture and hold this bewildered amazement of and for the Southern Sudanese?  

maybe.

But it's pretty cool to look at it this way.  A way, that when you step back, you see that everything has it's reason and everything has it's place, and i am surly not in control.  and at the right times, that is so comforting to know.